Saturday, 10 May 2014
Trying to find the alternate route.
I don't know what the f@uk I am doing! I had planned to have a new blog post up last Sunday, and now here I am completely lost, and devoid of the inspiration I so had a few weeks ago.
I had finally found something I could manage, something that would keep me full and rid me of the hungers I so often succumbed to.
Lets see if I can make some sense of the happenings lately. Firstly it has been a very long time since my last post, which ended on the high of my Color Run, with all roads ahead for me. Seems I took the wrong road from early February and I'm still trying to find the alternate route.
Basically from the high that was completing the Color Run I plateaued, lost motivation and seemed to slump into the inevitable. But there was one difference, compared to pretty much the year before, and that was I never allowed myself to completely give in. Wasn't going to happen, and I just searched for a new direction to take towards my long term goal.
Tuesday, 28 January 2014
Color me in Paint!
This is not the plan! Seriously WTF? Its 04:37 and I am sitting here with a cuppa,why? Bloody good question.The day has arrived, the day of my first ever event to do with running or exercise its the Color Run.
I had planned it out, the race stars at 10 am so up at 6 for cuppa and, breakfast giving me plenty of time for body to deal with it and me time to get everything sorted. Now I also made a point of getting a good nights sleep, so turned off computer around 20:30 on Saturday night aiming to be a sleep by 21:00 waking at 06:00 giving me at most 8-9 hrs sleep, at worse 7 hours. Great plan of attack, dinner was good and not too heavy and done and dusted by 18:00, all ready to rock for today.
Yeah right.....I found myself waking about 3 am, it was warm so got up to pee, and put on the A/C to cool the place down shutting itself off in 30 mins. That came and went as did 4 am, and when it was 4:30 bugger me I am not trying to force myself asleep now, as I'm fully awake, so here I am...
Breakfast will still be at 6 am otherwise if I have it now I'm going to be real hungry by 10 am and all I want is to eat about 3 prunes about 15-30 mins before Race starts, then finish it off post race with something like a Banana.
So how do I feel.....nervous as shite, scared I'm gonna fick this up, excited to actually achieve a result and to finally meet up with some MFP buddies, looking forward to being covered in paint with pics to capture the day. My right foot feels tense which is making me extra cautious, nervous especially after Fridays wogging effort. Perhaps its feeling the weight of expectation also (more like the weight of 117 kg lolz). But all I can do is my best. I'm not where I ideally wanted to be at this stage, but the fact I am still wogging is a positive and to be fair this run was always going to be a test for me anyway, to see if this is what I wanted to pursue, if these events are what I want to aim for, weather I can manage to attempt this in the crowd of bodies. I will find all this out and more in just over 5 hours, Ill let ya know how it pans out :)
I am still buzzing about Sundays Color Run, and I will attempt to convey my thoughts/feelings on the day, so please bare with.
So I live about 40 mins away from the Pukekohe Raceway where the event was being held. I left at 8:30 hoping to get there just after 9, all good until traffic slowed progress right down. It took me about 25 mins to get off the Motorway (good place to pop the prunes in my mouth),but thanks to some back roads I parked up around 9:30, popped on my runners and headed to the entrance. I was waiting for the rest of the team to arrive and they also were stuck in the chaos of traffic, so I headed down to see my good friend and #1 Color Run volunteer Becs! Had a quick chin wag with her before wandering around then onto the place I said I was waiting. 10 am came and soon went as I saw the mass of people starting (9000 entrants) in the first wave. Time went and as I continued to wait I watched the first person to finish the run cross the line, soon followed my others some splashed in color and others almost looking as if they had just jogged from their cars they were that clean, I would find out myself later why this was.
Anyway, soon enough after a bit of txt find and seek Team Beast was assembled and ready to rock.
We got our swag on and started the race just after they had released a group of others and soon we were weaving our way through the other folks some dancing, some running but alot just walking and enjoying themselves, in different hats,wigs and other assortments of attire. Before I knew it we had arrived at the color Green marking our first kilometer and a few sprinkles of color to go with it.
The music was blaring and we started photo-bombing various people taking pics and soon it became clear in this event we would have to provide alot of the fun and entertainment ourselves. We had run a fair bit of it by now from the start and to me it was already an accomplishment having run so much, and surprised me to be honest, helping me push on still feeling good and enjoying the time.
Pink was our next marker and I managed to spot the one and only #2 Warriors fan the Mt Smart Joker himself doing an awesome job covering anyone and everyone in pink, a high five later I also joined the Pink brigade, joining the small green I had collected. Not far from here the ZM pic frame was graced by Team Beast (still trying to find the pic hint hint ZM) as we ran on and soon to the 1/2 way point and water station where Janine had to quench her thirst.
Smurf time ahead as we approached the Blue Zone and we knew by now that to get any decent color on we were gonna have to roll with it, literately because to be honest the vast majority of the people at the color stations were obviously well and truly over it by now and it detracted from the supposed Color Run theme, and if I thought it was bad, yellow was next. Boy oh boy they were the utter pits!! Seriously your here for FREE all ya need to do is be enthusiastic for about 2 hrs making sure the people who spent good money to have a good time were colored and the fact we had to seek you out and almost beg to be covered was a major downer, heck I was tempted to grab the bottles of paint myself and actually get it done.
We got on our grove and planned to run the last km to the end which I struggled with, as by this time I was feeling it so I walked up the hill and a bit more but made the effort to push ahead and cross the line running, which I did achieve.
At the finish we grabbed a bottle of drink and our Color packs greeted by our #1 volunteer and fellow MFP crazy Becs who was doing an awesome job at the finish line and we headed to the stage area for a color throw just missing out by seconds on one of them but the paint was airborne and the party was on
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The party seemed to be more of where the event was aimed at based on the comparisons we had experienced, which was a shame as sure the finish is something to celebrate and it was great to party after. But maybe if they had put as much effort into the actual race experience especially at the color zones as they seemed to have put into the stage post run area the overall experience would have been one to truly ramble on about. Soon enough it was time we said our goodbyes and headed home. It took me 1 hour to leave the car park (Banana time) and it was almost 3:30 by time I arrived home, happy and with a massive sense of achievement.
For me the Color Run was a landmark event in my life, a beginning if you will. I started my running just as a way to increase my fitness/exercise and as a step up from the walking I was doing, in early to mid November. Becs was the one to mention the event to me and until I looked into it I had never thought about doing any kind of run event before. But I soon signed up joining Team Beast in early December, and making the Color Run a true first for me. I did have a great day, I enjoyed the experience and the running itself.
The shortcomings I encountered in the event did not take from this overall experience for me. Sure it could and should have been far better but the biggest thing was actually completing the event. The 2 weeks leading up to the run had not been good for me health wise and the training was inconsistent at times. I am a complete novice at this and anything of its likeness. I had battled nerves, apprehension, excitement and doubting weather I had made a wrong choice in entering, all this and more leading into and including the day of the event. But once I had met the girls from Team Beast and we had started the run all of that vanished.
Based on my dumb phone app Runtastic, I covered 5.03 km at a pace of 8:54 in just under 45 mins. That is a PB for yours truly and I also ran longer non stop and more often than in any of my previous solo training's.
Onward and Upwards now........
Pics from my phone and also from of Team Beast.
Wednesday, 1 January 2014
New Year, New beginnings......
No inspirational quotes or resolutions this year just simply as it says above, 2014 IS going to be better, for my daughter and for ME!
Every new years I have done what millions of other people do and made resolutions to eat better, lose weight, save money etc etc the list is endless. But for me, this year NO. No more resolutions that ultimately get broken or forgotten about. No more putting unneeded pressure on myself to do this or that, as It never works and ends up making things worse. So this year is just GOING TO BE BETTER Nice and simple.
These last few months as I have embarked on this new ride I have achieved alot and am proud of the progress I have made. Sure I have had not so good days and at times binged on this and that, but I never let myself get down about it. I picked myself up accepted what had happened for what it simply was and moved on. As early as September or early October this year it was a completely different story, and the results would have had a much differing outcome. I did not do this alone, as any of you who follow my ramblings on here know I have a close support network that I know have helped me and will continue to moving forward.
2014 for me is about continuing the good work I have put in and moving forward with new ideas and more information. I know I will have bad days, as I am only human after all, but I am not going to let those days ruin all the other great days ahead for me. I have my 1st ever event coming up on the 26th of this month, The Color Run its a 5 km circuit of the Pukekohe Raceway and I am both nervous of how I'll go and also very excited all in the same. I will meet one or two of my MFP friends for the 1st time and It will be great to finally meet in person.
Something like this was never in my thoughts or to be honest never in any brainwave at all this time last year, but here I am heading towards it with no regrets.
This time last year I weighed myself and 146 kg was the weight those scales showed, today I am now 119 kg!!! For the 1st time in years I am below the 120 mark, and since rejoining MFP in mid October I have lost 14 kg, I am slowly running more and more, having just increased my wog route to 5 km so I can gauge progress. I still can not run longer than maybe 400 m non stop, and at times I get bothered by it, but I remind myself that a year ago i was struggling to walk 2 km non stop at decent pace and now look at where I am.
I am also ready to move forward with the rest of my life, I feel like its bloody time I started getting out a bit more socially and maybe just maybe somewhere, sometime I will once more have a chance to experience the joys of being no longer single? Who knows but I do feel that after 4.5 yrs I am ready to at last allow myself to let someone else into my life if that makes sense ha ha. Its a big step even admitting it to myself, but I am once again starting to love myself and I told myself that I would never allow myself to again give my love if I could not love who I was. And I am loving who I am becoming. Enough lovey dovey stuff lol.
"The graveyard is full of dreams"
2014 is where I begin chasing some dreams and saying yes to new opportunities that may fall my way. Its the year I actually show my loving daughter what her dad is all about. Its a year I no longer make stupid excuses to get out of being afraid, its a year I stay in touch with family and friends in England and Aussie on a regular basis. Its a year where I start being good with money and stop being a grumpy pants. My best mate in Aussie has his 38th birthday this year and we both love the mighty Warriors league team and I have not seen him for many years and its about time I saved up and renewed my passport and headed over to see him and meet his new family. Its all about doing things like that from now on. I will always try each and everyday to be better than the last. I am far from perfect but at least I will try from now on to be a better Dad, friend, son, lover (maybe lolz) and a better ME!
Whats on the plan for you this year? Any big events or occasions to look forward to??
Sunday, 8 December 2013
Re-adjusting
Well what a week I have had. My first full week in my new job working 11 to 12 hours a day with no breaks after lunch, continuously on my feet lifting 25kg+ boxes of meat, standing and cutting meat up to exact weight portions (bloody fussy chefs :P) and getting home with sore back and feet aching to the point sometimes they feel almost completely numb.
This has seriously screwed up my routine and I have found myself little energy for proper exercise and the return of the after din dins hording down of food in sight. Since Sunday night (2/12) I have found myself bingeing on anything I can find. Sunday was just a couple extra choc biscuits which I logged and still came under. Monday I managed a wee walk which helped me again come under post binge.Tuesday onwards it just kept on rolling and rolling I ate almost anything and everything I could find during the next 3 days inc 6 boiled potatoes in one sitting, 3 on another night all unlogged :( On Thursday I logged what I ate and was over and I did think of not posting it then I changed my mind and decided to leave my posting settings the same, so I posted my diary warts and all.
How could I be completely open and honest with myself if I was not prepared to do the same with a group of people I have come to know and trust, who have always been supportive and offered great advice. I not once beat myself up over this eating but It did frustrate me no end. I was not eating enough protein that's why I was hungry was one of the things I looked at and made an effort to fix Friday/Saturday with noticeable differences. But to be honest I thought to myself that If this continues into and through the weekend That would be it! The weekend was to be make or break for me.
Friday rolled around to a better day, no bingeing and Saturday was by far the best day I have had this week! Ate well and was not craving anything. No exercise (resting up the limbs) but really satisfied and happy. And looking at that make or break comment....I would only be fooling myself if I allowed a off week ruin all the great and positive physical and mental gains I have made since late October. My friend said I should allow for at least two weeks to settle into a new full on work/eat/exercise routine and that makes sense. So I have planned out my next weeks exercise with 3 rest days and 3 walk days with Saturday a maybe day. Eating a bigger lunch to fuel my body till 6pm at the least is on the cards, and a sneaky snack mid afternoon to top me up.
One thing that came from this and everyday I binged I did not beat myself up about it, I just accepted it and woke up the next day all ready to roll no guilt for last nights crap, nope new day new start. 3-4 days of bad choices is not going to ruin the other 26 or so in the month now is it! Its what you do to understand and fix the days this happens that matter. Accept them for what they are and plan ahead for a new day tomorrow. Because thats what I'm doing, next weeks going to be a better week for me and it can be for you!
I told only one other person about my struggles this week someone who has and continues to support me in my struggles and also my recent triumphs, she always offers great hints and advice which helps me stay the course. I am also accountable with a weekly exercise plan I share with her usually every Sunday when I make up a new plan and go over the weeks plan. I have found having someone to help me and offer advice and encouragement as well as being able to directly share the ups with extremely helpful and motivating. She has once again helped me stay the course and I believe its almost vital esp in the early stages of the journey to try to find someone like that. I never sort her out but as a MFP friend to begin with we became better acquainted and soon became good friends. Thats why to be fair I think even if you don't believe in logging or tracking each and every meal MFP also provides something (that sadly sometimes real friends that you grew up with or see everyday) and thats supportive understanding people who can relate and understand just what its like to be overweight and struggle to lose it. Get a support system in place and be true to them but more so be true to yourself, because at the end of the day if your not able to be honest with yourself then your only fooling the one person who really can do something about it, and thats YOU!
I will also make a commitment here on this blog, to all My Fitness Pal friends that I shall always be honest in the logging I do weather it be in the foods/exercise or in the comments.
What kind of support network do you have around you?
This has seriously screwed up my routine and I have found myself little energy for proper exercise and the return of the after din dins hording down of food in sight. Since Sunday night (2/12) I have found myself bingeing on anything I can find. Sunday was just a couple extra choc biscuits which I logged and still came under. Monday I managed a wee walk which helped me again come under post binge.Tuesday onwards it just kept on rolling and rolling I ate almost anything and everything I could find during the next 3 days inc 6 boiled potatoes in one sitting, 3 on another night all unlogged :( On Thursday I logged what I ate and was over and I did think of not posting it then I changed my mind and decided to leave my posting settings the same, so I posted my diary warts and all.
How could I be completely open and honest with myself if I was not prepared to do the same with a group of people I have come to know and trust, who have always been supportive and offered great advice. I not once beat myself up over this eating but It did frustrate me no end. I was not eating enough protein that's why I was hungry was one of the things I looked at and made an effort to fix Friday/Saturday with noticeable differences. But to be honest I thought to myself that If this continues into and through the weekend That would be it! The weekend was to be make or break for me.
Friday rolled around to a better day, no bingeing and Saturday was by far the best day I have had this week! Ate well and was not craving anything. No exercise (resting up the limbs) but really satisfied and happy. And looking at that make or break comment....I would only be fooling myself if I allowed a off week ruin all the great and positive physical and mental gains I have made since late October. My friend said I should allow for at least two weeks to settle into a new full on work/eat/exercise routine and that makes sense. So I have planned out my next weeks exercise with 3 rest days and 3 walk days with Saturday a maybe day. Eating a bigger lunch to fuel my body till 6pm at the least is on the cards, and a sneaky snack mid afternoon to top me up.
One thing that came from this and everyday I binged I did not beat myself up about it, I just accepted it and woke up the next day all ready to roll no guilt for last nights crap, nope new day new start. 3-4 days of bad choices is not going to ruin the other 26 or so in the month now is it! Its what you do to understand and fix the days this happens that matter. Accept them for what they are and plan ahead for a new day tomorrow. Because thats what I'm doing, next weeks going to be a better week for me and it can be for you!
I told only one other person about my struggles this week someone who has and continues to support me in my struggles and also my recent triumphs, she always offers great hints and advice which helps me stay the course. I am also accountable with a weekly exercise plan I share with her usually every Sunday when I make up a new plan and go over the weeks plan. I have found having someone to help me and offer advice and encouragement as well as being able to directly share the ups with extremely helpful and motivating. She has once again helped me stay the course and I believe its almost vital esp in the early stages of the journey to try to find someone like that. I never sort her out but as a MFP friend to begin with we became better acquainted and soon became good friends. Thats why to be fair I think even if you don't believe in logging or tracking each and every meal MFP also provides something (that sadly sometimes real friends that you grew up with or see everyday) and thats supportive understanding people who can relate and understand just what its like to be overweight and struggle to lose it. Get a support system in place and be true to them but more so be true to yourself, because at the end of the day if your not able to be honest with yourself then your only fooling the one person who really can do something about it, and thats YOU!
I will also make a commitment here on this blog, to all My Fitness Pal friends that I shall always be honest in the logging I do weather it be in the foods/exercise or in the comments.
What kind of support network do you have around you?
Wednesday, 27 November 2013
Feeling Like a ROCK STAR!
I have had some great days that equaled into great results both S.V (scale victories) & N.S.V (non-scale victories). I have looked at a few things and noticed a difference both in terms of physical and mental (I am always gonna be fully mental :P) So if you'll let me indulge as I eat my peanut butter w/banana on toast (YUM!) & Alpine Tea, Ill try to tell you whats what.
Today I left the doc's feeling like a Rock Star! I saw her about 3 weeks ago and she did the blood pressure test, weight and sent me for a million blood tests, with firm instructions come back in 3 weeks. Now usually I would have not been bothered to get the tests done, forgotten to take my tablets etc and never made another appointment. Thats pretty much why the last time she saw me was 2 years ago. But with all my recent new attitudes and progress I took my blood pressure tabs, went for the tests and continued my exercising and food positive action. Today my blood pressure went from 150/100 to 100/80!!! I also was down to 122 kg and the tests were good. So for the 1st time I can remember no lecture from the doc just positive feedback and some advice for moving forwards with keep up what I have been doing. YES!
So my scale victory is a loss of 11 kg since 13 October when I rejoined MFP. I have also gone from a 53" waist to 49. I have gained new and great friends who continue to motivate,support,advise and inspire me to better myself each and everyday!
In my last blog I talked about reaching out and also the fact I had noticed differences in myself as I looked into my feelings that day. That progress still goes on, each day I notice how I now look at things in a completely different way.
Take for example a show I used to watch and really wanted to have a chance to be on because I was in desperate need of help, a show called The Biggest Loser (Aus/US). I have not watched it since that last blog post (2 shows missed I think) why? Because where I would watch it and feel and even picture myself on there getting the help and losing weight, now I find it sad and wrong! Nothing against the show, it helps people change their lives and has a purpose. But no longer for me! I dont need to burn a min of 1800 calories a day, I dont need to eat like a bird, I dont need big talks I once imagined myself having with the trainers etc like you see.
Because by exercising and eating within a set goal and surrounding myself with people who are going through differing stages of their fitness/weight goals I have learned to become stronger, in myself and I must say I am falling in love with my legs again ha ha ha! I am doing this and I am stronger mentally and physically because of the hard work I have put into me. I am for the first time in 10 years liking myself again.
Look I still have the belly and at times I wish it could just vanish, but then I reassess and well it is slowly going from the sides and the bottom up (not that bottom). Its slowly melting away and as the blogger in Move Love Eat posted HERE there are other ways to measure your success other than the scales. Take a look at it and remember the scales are only another tool in your kit to measure success.
Over the weekend I finally got out into the garden on Saturday and Sunday burning calories as I dug and cut trees, weeds and the like. I got the job done and a sense of accomplishment with finally reclaiming my back & side garden, oh and some burns on my hands from a plant of some kind ouch. I also turned off the TV except for Duck Dynasty and put the radio on and picked up a book and read as chatted to a friend via txt and FB. Time to think, relax, laugh and enjoy. I also did alot of reading on the internet and scored a couple great core and hip/glutes exercises to do after runs. Found a nice strength program called Beginner Body Weight workout found HERE. I also found THIS website listing 20 great Pre/Post Workout snacks! I also looked around the Active.com website finding some helpful articles.
Oh and I guess the biggest news is......I start my new JOB tomorrow!!! woop woop I finally am employed again. In fact the day after my down day I was offered it. So so excited and also apprehensive. But this has also enabled me to Enter THIS! My 1st EVER event! A great great chance to test myself and a great goal to work towards and motivate myself.
Now I think this blog has been long but please a bit longer as I will attempt to talk about the reason for my apprehension towards starting my new job.
Now its not the apprehension as normally you get in a new place or position like meeting new people etc. This is directly related to my exercise/food path. My main and biggest worry has been taking all this new found eating and more so exercise plan into the enviroment that is full time employment. Now I know I am not the only one who has a job either full/part time weather you be a full time mum at home or CEO, and I know a few who are achieving great results while doing this. But me? In Jan I started with MFP and one of the reasons I fell down was that I became employed full time and soon found myself getting home tired and eating all the wrong things. So the apprehension is due to past failures. And they are very much real and to be honest I am shit scared of falling down again.
The food is not the issue, I can get up at 0430 for breakfast and make lunch the night before (done), the dinner will have to be planned the night before and I know I have this down. Its the exercising that is the main worry for me. Its all very easy to exercise everyday when I have had no job for 3 months, but now I come to my first REAL BIG TEST! Now here I could start to freak out and scare myself into a frenzy, but NO. I am better equipped than I was in January. I have achieved much more than I did and thus there is more to lose. I have a close group of people I know will kick my ass if I let myself and them down, one in particular.
I am NOT about to let that happen. As I have said I am mentally stronger than last time, I am better prepared with better tools to overcome any issues.
I have already made a exercise plan which starts tomorrow with times, I am committing to min 3 wogs a week with strength training the other days and Sunday being rest day. This is in my e-mail calender with reminders popping up 1 hour before I set the time to start each activity, this is also on my phone. I will wog before my dinner each night (late afternoon) and I will continue to be honest with my supporters on MFP in all my logging. I am making myself a promise and I dont break promises! I have come so far achieved so much in this time and I am not letting laziness and excuses re-enter my life! NO EXCUSES!
Today I left the doc's feeling like a Rock Star! I saw her about 3 weeks ago and she did the blood pressure test, weight and sent me for a million blood tests, with firm instructions come back in 3 weeks. Now usually I would have not been bothered to get the tests done, forgotten to take my tablets etc and never made another appointment. Thats pretty much why the last time she saw me was 2 years ago. But with all my recent new attitudes and progress I took my blood pressure tabs, went for the tests and continued my exercising and food positive action. Today my blood pressure went from 150/100 to 100/80!!! I also was down to 122 kg and the tests were good. So for the 1st time I can remember no lecture from the doc just positive feedback and some advice for moving forwards with keep up what I have been doing. YES!
So my scale victory is a loss of 11 kg since 13 October when I rejoined MFP. I have also gone from a 53" waist to 49. I have gained new and great friends who continue to motivate,support,advise and inspire me to better myself each and everyday!
In my last blog I talked about reaching out and also the fact I had noticed differences in myself as I looked into my feelings that day. That progress still goes on, each day I notice how I now look at things in a completely different way.
Take for example a show I used to watch and really wanted to have a chance to be on because I was in desperate need of help, a show called The Biggest Loser (Aus/US). I have not watched it since that last blog post (2 shows missed I think) why? Because where I would watch it and feel and even picture myself on there getting the help and losing weight, now I find it sad and wrong! Nothing against the show, it helps people change their lives and has a purpose. But no longer for me! I dont need to burn a min of 1800 calories a day, I dont need to eat like a bird, I dont need big talks I once imagined myself having with the trainers etc like you see.
Because by exercising and eating within a set goal and surrounding myself with people who are going through differing stages of their fitness/weight goals I have learned to become stronger, in myself and I must say I am falling in love with my legs again ha ha ha! I am doing this and I am stronger mentally and physically because of the hard work I have put into me. I am for the first time in 10 years liking myself again.
Look I still have the belly and at times I wish it could just vanish, but then I reassess and well it is slowly going from the sides and the bottom up (not that bottom). Its slowly melting away and as the blogger in Move Love Eat posted HERE there are other ways to measure your success other than the scales. Take a look at it and remember the scales are only another tool in your kit to measure success.
Over the weekend I finally got out into the garden on Saturday and Sunday burning calories as I dug and cut trees, weeds and the like. I got the job done and a sense of accomplishment with finally reclaiming my back & side garden, oh and some burns on my hands from a plant of some kind ouch. I also turned off the TV except for Duck Dynasty and put the radio on and picked up a book and read as chatted to a friend via txt and FB. Time to think, relax, laugh and enjoy. I also did alot of reading on the internet and scored a couple great core and hip/glutes exercises to do after runs. Found a nice strength program called Beginner Body Weight workout found HERE. I also found THIS website listing 20 great Pre/Post Workout snacks! I also looked around the Active.com website finding some helpful articles.
Oh and I guess the biggest news is......I start my new JOB tomorrow!!! woop woop I finally am employed again. In fact the day after my down day I was offered it. So so excited and also apprehensive. But this has also enabled me to Enter THIS! My 1st EVER event! A great great chance to test myself and a great goal to work towards and motivate myself.
Now I think this blog has been long but please a bit longer as I will attempt to talk about the reason for my apprehension towards starting my new job.
Now its not the apprehension as normally you get in a new place or position like meeting new people etc. This is directly related to my exercise/food path. My main and biggest worry has been taking all this new found eating and more so exercise plan into the enviroment that is full time employment. Now I know I am not the only one who has a job either full/part time weather you be a full time mum at home or CEO, and I know a few who are achieving great results while doing this. But me? In Jan I started with MFP and one of the reasons I fell down was that I became employed full time and soon found myself getting home tired and eating all the wrong things. So the apprehension is due to past failures. And they are very much real and to be honest I am shit scared of falling down again.
The food is not the issue, I can get up at 0430 for breakfast and make lunch the night before (done), the dinner will have to be planned the night before and I know I have this down. Its the exercising that is the main worry for me. Its all very easy to exercise everyday when I have had no job for 3 months, but now I come to my first REAL BIG TEST! Now here I could start to freak out and scare myself into a frenzy, but NO. I am better equipped than I was in January. I have achieved much more than I did and thus there is more to lose. I have a close group of people I know will kick my ass if I let myself and them down, one in particular.
I am NOT about to let that happen. As I have said I am mentally stronger than last time, I am better prepared with better tools to overcome any issues.
I have already made a exercise plan which starts tomorrow with times, I am committing to min 3 wogs a week with strength training the other days and Sunday being rest day. This is in my e-mail calender with reminders popping up 1 hour before I set the time to start each activity, this is also on my phone. I will wog before my dinner each night (late afternoon) and I will continue to be honest with my supporters on MFP in all my logging. I am making myself a promise and I dont break promises! I have come so far achieved so much in this time and I am not letting laziness and excuses re-enter my life! NO EXCUSES!
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